Back to full time work and Clomid
Next week is September and I am going back to full time hours I cannot wait. Especially as now I can use the dishwasher at work. What does worry me though is also next week being the beginning of the month is also when I am due on my period so that week will be hard. But at least I can look at it this way if I can get through next week all will be ok. I am not due on until Wednesday/Thursday anyway so that leaves Friday and Saturday at work and Sunday is my day off. Then I have my gynaecologist appointment on Monday. Wednesday will be my first 11 hour shift since the beginning of the year, in fact I think I have not done on all year as we were quiet in January and in February I was ill. It seems so long ago now. Well I guess it is 8 months since I first went sick. I cannot believe how long it has taken to get to this stage and there was me thinking by July I would be back full time, yeah right. I had a look back at my pictures again the other day. I showed a friend them. She said I looked like a different person and she was right. I would not wish this on anyone not even my worst enemy. I just hope that one day they will understand enough about endometriosis to find a cure or even a preventative measure so people will not have to suffer so long before they are diagnosed. I think though this is a bit of a pipe dream and sadly I would not hold my breath.
Well here we are I have had my gynaecologist appointment. It was a quick one he apologised for not being around a lot he said he has a lot of holiday in the summer. He explained that my blood test results have come back that I am not ovulating and that there are 3 ways to conceive:-
My pelvis is still sore but when is it not? I cannot wait to start these tablets. I hope they work please, please, please work.
He did warn us that there is a 10% chance of twins or triplets both my husband and myself said we would not mind as we want more than one child so that would mean not having to repeat this again if we have a multiple birth.
We also spoke about ectopic pregnancy. He said yes I am at high risk but if I conceived naturally, with Clomifene or IVF I still had a chance of ectopic. So we will just have to deal with it if it comes to it. After all the want to have a family is so big now it is worth the risk.
After all if we did not want children that much after all we have been through this year we would have given up by now. But it will be worth it in the end when we are holding our healthy little boy or girl in our arms.
Four weeks ago I brought a book called “Take Control of your Endometriosis – help relieve symptoms with simple diet and lifestyle changes” by Henrietta Norton. She is a nutritionist who suffers from endometriosis I thought why not give it a go it may or may not have some interesting things in it at the end of the day what have I got to lose?
Obviously you cannot follow all of the things she suggests due to practicality of everyday life and your own circumstances. But I found some suggestions were food and I have made myself an eating regime following from what I got from the book:-
This new regime must be working though because even though I had a cold last week (made me feel weak, achy, tired and affected my eyesight for a couple of days) several people said I was looking really healthy at work. And to be honest even though I felt ill I did not feel as bad as I did when I was well before I changed my diet.
Oh almost forgot on my last period I only took ibuprofen one night that’s unheard off. Even if this is a placebo effect long may it continue.
I cannot wait to take my Clomifene next week not long to go now.
Well my body decides again not to play game. I was supposed to start my period between Monday 30th September and Wednesday 2nd October and here we are on Tuesday 8th October still waiting. It’s got to happen soon this morning and yesterday I felt I was due to start but if this morning is anything like yesterday that feeling will go. I am feeling a bit queasy as well. My husband has suggested testing on Saturday if my period has not arrived. I do not feel pregnant and after all I am not ovulating so I cannot be can I? I do hope it arrives before Saturday so I can start my tablets. Why can my body not do as it is meant to do when it is meant to do it? Anyway time to get up I am hungry yet again, lately I have gone into hibernation prep mode and eating constantly I am always hungry.
WAHOO finally my period has come on Wednesday. Wow who would have thought I would be ever saying that! I had an OK night’s sleep. I did keep waking up. When I finally dozed off I woke up with that tight cramping feeling just before I come on my period. Later that morning I it arrived, my pelvis got worse as the day went on. My stomach would swell then go down.
Last night I slept well until I woke up at 4.30am. As the day went on my abdominal pain got worse. I was meant to work until just after 3.30pm but could not stay at work because my painkillers did not kick in. It is really making up for a nice month last month and a late one this time. I am curled up on the sofa with my heat pad, feeling like crap. On the up side though I will take my first tablet tonight. I hope it works and does not make things worse.
Saturday night was horrible I went to go to bed just about to doze off and it hit me, the pain in my stomach, pelvis and back. I found it hard to breathe. It was really hard work to catch my breath. It was really hard work to catch my breath. I could not reach out to get my tablets to ease it. I was finally able to move enough to take some Ibuprofen and struggled to get to the microwave to heat up my heat pad. It took almost an hour to ease enough to do anything. My body had gone into shock where it happened so suddenly. I went so cold and could not stop shivering, even with the heat pad. When it finally eased I must have fallen asleep where it had tired me out so much. The next day about the same time the stomach muscles tightened again. This has happened for a couple of days now.
My Clomifene round is now over and it is day 8. I hope they have worked.
I have worked out that I have taken at least one tablet every day for the past 11 years for some of those days I have had to take more tablets than other days.
Wow, the Clomifene has messed with my head. I thought I had got away with the side effects but looking back at the past few days I have had mild confusion even though I have only just realised it. But today is really bad I am finding it hard to even could to 10. I would get to 4 then have to think hard about what comes after that. I had to drop my husband off to pool tonight I sat in the car after he had been driving and could not figure out why I could not reach the pedals. It is crazy, bit like baby brain but obviously not. I always thought that it was a myth but now I take it back. It is the increase of hormones that have made me like this. I hope it will not last, what if I am still not ovulating, and they double the dose? How will my brain cope then?
Well today was a bit better as it is my day off so I do not need to think so much. But saying that when I do have to use my brain I am still finding it hard.
Day 2 today and I am feeling like crap I have abdominal pains, pelvic pain, nausea and fatigue. I was meant to do a 9-3.30 shift at work today but by 11.00am I went home sick. I am also very irritable seems every little thing is getting to me today.
I have just phoned the doctors about my results of my “day 21” blood test results, they said they have not received any results for me. I told the receptionist that I need the results to know how much Clomifene I need to take later today. She is phoning up the pathology laboratory to get the results for me I hope she can, if not I shall have to phone my gynaecologist and see what he has to say about what I should do.
I have just phoned the doctor surgery again as I had not heard back from them. The results were borderline ovulatory. So once again I am waiting for the doctor to phone me back to say whether I should double my dose or stick with what I have been. Well at least it is not terrible news but good news that the tablets have actually done something. Let’s see what the doctor says when she phones me back.
Just got off the phone from the doctor she said that non-ovulatory is under 20 but ovulatory is 30 and my results are 28. She looked at the letter that my gynaecologist had sent and said that she would recommend to treat it as non-ovulatory and double the dose. She said I could phone the hospital and check with them if I want to as she was not entirely sure, but I think that as it is gone 8.00pm now I doubt that my gynaecologist would be there now. I think I will just double my dose like my GP said, at the end of the day what is the worse that could happen? Twins? Triplets? The hormones will increase more now I am on double dose, therefore the chances of me ovulating will be higher and as I was just under ovulation last time, this time in my eyes I should ovulate and you never know it could be twins.
I still do not know what to do about this pain I take Ibuprofen and Paracetamol it then kicks in for about an hour and then the pain starts to flare up again I have got my heat pad on my abdomen again. It seems to ease the muscles a bit. I just wish it would stop the pain. I am thinking of taking a Co-Codamol and lactulose but I really do not want to risk it constipating me more than what I am already. Will see if I can sleep if it does stop me from sleeping then I will take the Co-Codamol. Whenever I sit down I feel pressure going up my bum and the lower part of my bowel. I am so drained after today I just want to curl up in a ball and hibernate for the next week (well next 9days will do).
I wonder if doubling my dose will double the side effects that I had last month. Talking of side effects I hope the symptoms of my endometriosis eases by tomorrow I am meant to be doing an 11 hour shift tomorrow. A long day and feeling crap is not a good mix at all.
Well I went in on Friday and was feeling like crap. I started work at 9.00am and by 9.30am I had already had 6 different people tell me that I should go home because I looked terrible and like I was in a lot of pain. And there was me thinking I was hiding the pain well. By 10.00am I gave in and went home. I slept all day, well dozed as I could not sleep a deep sleep as my tablets were only working for an hour to take the edge off then would stop working. So very pointless taking them really but I did take them just to try and ease the pain. I managed to sleep all Friday night and woke up Saturday morning more human. I was able to do a long shift again and a Sunday shift. Today if my day off work and I am feeling great more like myself.
Today is Day 6 and the last day off taking the Clomifene. I have certainly had more side effects this time. I have been drinking loads as though I am dehydrated – even though I am not – I have also had a headache that has lasted Friday, Saturday and Sunday. It however is not just a normal headache but one I would imagine like a hangover (I have never had a hangover, but this is how I would imagine one to be like) it gave me a thick fuzzy headache that just would not go. Also my sense of humour yesterday afternoon (Sunday) went completely. I was so irritable and mood swings. I feel bad for my husband as I would snap at him one moment and the next I would be wanting a hug. I also felt so close to tears. Thankfully today I am feeling much more like myself more happy, chirpy me, long may this me stay. I am still drinking more than normal though but hey I can cope with that. It will be worth it in the end. Please let this month be the month please, please, please.
What a past few weeks! We got the keys to our new house on Friday 22nd November. So the past few weeks have been work, pack, clean, move boxes from the flat to our new home and unpack. We have been trying to get as much done as possible before my period starts and I am out of action again.
I was looking forward to my 30 days off work (14 days holiday plus Christmas and New Year and weekends). Tuesday 3rd December was my last day off work for the year then I would have all that time to sort out the house. But driving in to work someone crashed into my car on a very busy roundabout causing me to spin. I was very shaken and went into shock but thankfully no one was hurt. It could have been much worse than what it was. So I ended up sorting that out instead.
It is now 5th December and I am still a bit stiff and achy from the crash and to top it all off last night I got that all too familiar ache/cramp. I took Ibuprofen to catch it early as I still have a fair bit of stuff to do and now is not a good time (well really what a silly thing to say when is ever a good time?). So here I am this morning the whole of my right abdomen cramping, sore pelvis and very bloated due to the Endometriosis and on top of that I have a stiff lower back. But that could be a mixture of the time of the month and a bit of the accident. Stiff shoulders, and my right leg (knee and ankle) is also stiff.
So all in all not doing so well today. I swear if I were a horse then I would be put down.
It is official the Clomifene does give me horrible side effects. I am starting to think that the headache that it gives me is caused by dehydration caused by the tablets. I just constantly feel so thirsty. I also feel drained like I am coming down with something.
My energy is now starting to go up again which is goo as yesterday I had no energy what so ever. I got out of bed at 10.30am and sat on the sofa until after lunch and by 2.30pm I had an afternoon nap.
I weighed myself today 8 ½ stone. Just over my “happy weight” of 8 stone but I really do not mind as although my Endometriosis is flaring up and I feel crappy I am still healthy.
Well here we are I have had my gynaecologist appointment. It was a quick one he apologised for not being around a lot he said he has a lot of holiday in the summer. He explained that my blood test results have come back that I am not ovulating and that there are 3 ways to conceive:-
- Naturally – Not going to happen as I am not ovulating and we have tried now for 2 years with no success.
- Tablets – The route we are doing now.
- IVF – If the tablets do not work.
My pelvis is still sore but when is it not? I cannot wait to start these tablets. I hope they work please, please, please work.
He did warn us that there is a 10% chance of twins or triplets both my husband and myself said we would not mind as we want more than one child so that would mean not having to repeat this again if we have a multiple birth.
We also spoke about ectopic pregnancy. He said yes I am at high risk but if I conceived naturally, with Clomifene or IVF I still had a chance of ectopic. So we will just have to deal with it if it comes to it. After all the want to have a family is so big now it is worth the risk.
After all if we did not want children that much after all we have been through this year we would have given up by now. But it will be worth it in the end when we are holding our healthy little boy or girl in our arms.
Four weeks ago I brought a book called “Take Control of your Endometriosis – help relieve symptoms with simple diet and lifestyle changes” by Henrietta Norton. She is a nutritionist who suffers from endometriosis I thought why not give it a go it may or may not have some interesting things in it at the end of the day what have I got to lose?
Obviously you cannot follow all of the things she suggests due to practicality of everyday life and your own circumstances. But I found some suggestions were food and I have made myself an eating regime following from what I got from the book:-
- Eat more fruit and vegetables – I eat a lot of fruit and vegetables anyway but this time I go out of my way to buy fruit and when I get peckish I now have a nibble on that instead.
- Cut Out/Reduce Gluten and dairy – I do not have a lot of dairy anyway because I am slightly dairy intolerant but now I make sure I do not eat cakes etc. bread I have stopped anyway because I have found it makes me have a flare up.
- Cut down on the caffeine – Again I do not have a lot anyway, but now I treat myself to only one coffee when I meet my sister and that is all.
- A smoothie every morning when I wake up and at the end of the week with any leftover fruit I make my own.
This new regime must be working though because even though I had a cold last week (made me feel weak, achy, tired and affected my eyesight for a couple of days) several people said I was looking really healthy at work. And to be honest even though I felt ill I did not feel as bad as I did when I was well before I changed my diet.
Oh almost forgot on my last period I only took ibuprofen one night that’s unheard off. Even if this is a placebo effect long may it continue.
I cannot wait to take my Clomifene next week not long to go now.
Well my body decides again not to play game. I was supposed to start my period between Monday 30th September and Wednesday 2nd October and here we are on Tuesday 8th October still waiting. It’s got to happen soon this morning and yesterday I felt I was due to start but if this morning is anything like yesterday that feeling will go. I am feeling a bit queasy as well. My husband has suggested testing on Saturday if my period has not arrived. I do not feel pregnant and after all I am not ovulating so I cannot be can I? I do hope it arrives before Saturday so I can start my tablets. Why can my body not do as it is meant to do when it is meant to do it? Anyway time to get up I am hungry yet again, lately I have gone into hibernation prep mode and eating constantly I am always hungry.
WAHOO finally my period has come on Wednesday. Wow who would have thought I would be ever saying that! I had an OK night’s sleep. I did keep waking up. When I finally dozed off I woke up with that tight cramping feeling just before I come on my period. Later that morning I it arrived, my pelvis got worse as the day went on. My stomach would swell then go down.
Last night I slept well until I woke up at 4.30am. As the day went on my abdominal pain got worse. I was meant to work until just after 3.30pm but could not stay at work because my painkillers did not kick in. It is really making up for a nice month last month and a late one this time. I am curled up on the sofa with my heat pad, feeling like crap. On the up side though I will take my first tablet tonight. I hope it works and does not make things worse.
Saturday night was horrible I went to go to bed just about to doze off and it hit me, the pain in my stomach, pelvis and back. I found it hard to breathe. It was really hard work to catch my breath. It was really hard work to catch my breath. I could not reach out to get my tablets to ease it. I was finally able to move enough to take some Ibuprofen and struggled to get to the microwave to heat up my heat pad. It took almost an hour to ease enough to do anything. My body had gone into shock where it happened so suddenly. I went so cold and could not stop shivering, even with the heat pad. When it finally eased I must have fallen asleep where it had tired me out so much. The next day about the same time the stomach muscles tightened again. This has happened for a couple of days now.
My Clomifene round is now over and it is day 8. I hope they have worked.
I have worked out that I have taken at least one tablet every day for the past 11 years for some of those days I have had to take more tablets than other days.
Wow, the Clomifene has messed with my head. I thought I had got away with the side effects but looking back at the past few days I have had mild confusion even though I have only just realised it. But today is really bad I am finding it hard to even could to 10. I would get to 4 then have to think hard about what comes after that. I had to drop my husband off to pool tonight I sat in the car after he had been driving and could not figure out why I could not reach the pedals. It is crazy, bit like baby brain but obviously not. I always thought that it was a myth but now I take it back. It is the increase of hormones that have made me like this. I hope it will not last, what if I am still not ovulating, and they double the dose? How will my brain cope then?
Well today was a bit better as it is my day off so I do not need to think so much. But saying that when I do have to use my brain I am still finding it hard.
Day 2 today and I am feeling like crap I have abdominal pains, pelvic pain, nausea and fatigue. I was meant to do a 9-3.30 shift at work today but by 11.00am I went home sick. I am also very irritable seems every little thing is getting to me today.
I have just phoned the doctors about my results of my “day 21” blood test results, they said they have not received any results for me. I told the receptionist that I need the results to know how much Clomifene I need to take later today. She is phoning up the pathology laboratory to get the results for me I hope she can, if not I shall have to phone my gynaecologist and see what he has to say about what I should do.
I have just phoned the doctor surgery again as I had not heard back from them. The results were borderline ovulatory. So once again I am waiting for the doctor to phone me back to say whether I should double my dose or stick with what I have been. Well at least it is not terrible news but good news that the tablets have actually done something. Let’s see what the doctor says when she phones me back.
Just got off the phone from the doctor she said that non-ovulatory is under 20 but ovulatory is 30 and my results are 28. She looked at the letter that my gynaecologist had sent and said that she would recommend to treat it as non-ovulatory and double the dose. She said I could phone the hospital and check with them if I want to as she was not entirely sure, but I think that as it is gone 8.00pm now I doubt that my gynaecologist would be there now. I think I will just double my dose like my GP said, at the end of the day what is the worse that could happen? Twins? Triplets? The hormones will increase more now I am on double dose, therefore the chances of me ovulating will be higher and as I was just under ovulation last time, this time in my eyes I should ovulate and you never know it could be twins.
I still do not know what to do about this pain I take Ibuprofen and Paracetamol it then kicks in for about an hour and then the pain starts to flare up again I have got my heat pad on my abdomen again. It seems to ease the muscles a bit. I just wish it would stop the pain. I am thinking of taking a Co-Codamol and lactulose but I really do not want to risk it constipating me more than what I am already. Will see if I can sleep if it does stop me from sleeping then I will take the Co-Codamol. Whenever I sit down I feel pressure going up my bum and the lower part of my bowel. I am so drained after today I just want to curl up in a ball and hibernate for the next week (well next 9days will do).
I wonder if doubling my dose will double the side effects that I had last month. Talking of side effects I hope the symptoms of my endometriosis eases by tomorrow I am meant to be doing an 11 hour shift tomorrow. A long day and feeling crap is not a good mix at all.
Well I went in on Friday and was feeling like crap. I started work at 9.00am and by 9.30am I had already had 6 different people tell me that I should go home because I looked terrible and like I was in a lot of pain. And there was me thinking I was hiding the pain well. By 10.00am I gave in and went home. I slept all day, well dozed as I could not sleep a deep sleep as my tablets were only working for an hour to take the edge off then would stop working. So very pointless taking them really but I did take them just to try and ease the pain. I managed to sleep all Friday night and woke up Saturday morning more human. I was able to do a long shift again and a Sunday shift. Today if my day off work and I am feeling great more like myself.
Today is Day 6 and the last day off taking the Clomifene. I have certainly had more side effects this time. I have been drinking loads as though I am dehydrated – even though I am not – I have also had a headache that has lasted Friday, Saturday and Sunday. It however is not just a normal headache but one I would imagine like a hangover (I have never had a hangover, but this is how I would imagine one to be like) it gave me a thick fuzzy headache that just would not go. Also my sense of humour yesterday afternoon (Sunday) went completely. I was so irritable and mood swings. I feel bad for my husband as I would snap at him one moment and the next I would be wanting a hug. I also felt so close to tears. Thankfully today I am feeling much more like myself more happy, chirpy me, long may this me stay. I am still drinking more than normal though but hey I can cope with that. It will be worth it in the end. Please let this month be the month please, please, please.
What a past few weeks! We got the keys to our new house on Friday 22nd November. So the past few weeks have been work, pack, clean, move boxes from the flat to our new home and unpack. We have been trying to get as much done as possible before my period starts and I am out of action again.
I was looking forward to my 30 days off work (14 days holiday plus Christmas and New Year and weekends). Tuesday 3rd December was my last day off work for the year then I would have all that time to sort out the house. But driving in to work someone crashed into my car on a very busy roundabout causing me to spin. I was very shaken and went into shock but thankfully no one was hurt. It could have been much worse than what it was. So I ended up sorting that out instead.
It is now 5th December and I am still a bit stiff and achy from the crash and to top it all off last night I got that all too familiar ache/cramp. I took Ibuprofen to catch it early as I still have a fair bit of stuff to do and now is not a good time (well really what a silly thing to say when is ever a good time?). So here I am this morning the whole of my right abdomen cramping, sore pelvis and very bloated due to the Endometriosis and on top of that I have a stiff lower back. But that could be a mixture of the time of the month and a bit of the accident. Stiff shoulders, and my right leg (knee and ankle) is also stiff.
So all in all not doing so well today. I swear if I were a horse then I would be put down.
It is official the Clomifene does give me horrible side effects. I am starting to think that the headache that it gives me is caused by dehydration caused by the tablets. I just constantly feel so thirsty. I also feel drained like I am coming down with something.
My energy is now starting to go up again which is goo as yesterday I had no energy what so ever. I got out of bed at 10.30am and sat on the sofa until after lunch and by 2.30pm I had an afternoon nap.
I weighed myself today 8 ½ stone. Just over my “happy weight” of 8 stone but I really do not mind as although my Endometriosis is flaring up and I feel crappy I am still healthy.